Sunday, May 17, 2015

पिरोई

अजीब सी हलचल है यह ,
खामोशियो  का शोर कैसा।

मुंदे हुए आंखो  में ,
जागे रेहने का जोर कैसा ?

कही - अनकही में डूबे रहे कुछ इस तरह ,
अन्धीयारो से उजाला जगमागाया हो जैसा ।


Friday, May 15, 2015

Fire

"There! That's the point I have managed to push myself to..The moment where I am surrounded by the flames ; the boundary walls of orange have locked me in now and there's no escape!"

As I look outside from the train coach, I see some fields getting burnt and my eyes feast the sight of the raging flames! And then the mind chatter begins... 

I somewhere try to find the fire inside me.. The fire of self- motivation! Let my flames light up my dreams.. But, the flames have never even burnt the coal to keep the warmth in this long journey of life! Alas..The glow of these flames have never been so elusive ever before! Maybe the storms haven't been rough yet to test its powers or frankly they haven't been stoked well to bring the flames alive again! So what is it that's stopping to do so? The fear of the flames burning the pyres of dreams? The fear of these very flames burning those who are close? 

"Yes, the fire of fears have always surrounded me! "  spoke a voice deep within..... 


This very voice made me realise that yes I have started to pray for the rains!!! 


Saturday, April 25, 2015

Connect Disconnect

Through the tunnel of our mundane life,
as we all travel to find the rays of our goals
Why are we walking alone?
Alas the disconnect has crept slowly...
The yearning even more!
Where's the serenity we'd experience on listening to the flow of river?
The inspiration to course our long journey of life, as one sits on the bank...
Does the river exist anymore?

Our roots have started to loosen, as we all move ahead in our lives..
And as the vibrant greeens pale away to yellows and browns before the final fall,
One last look brings the realization,
The gem of springs were in our hands!
The greens of the forests, chirping of birds..

We haven't approached the end of the tunnel yet....
Its not too late to mend our ways!
Come let's connect with the nature,
which still has her beautiful arms opened wide..
Let us all traverse through the greenery under the blue sky and connect to our roots again!
Flow in the river of time.... 

Sunday, April 12, 2015

Doors

The first door that was opened to her was filled with darkness,
yet two hands emerged from the black to take her out to the ray of life.
Since then, many doors have opened and many have closed..
One of these doors  have remained open since her first thud,
 on rare cases closing her inside.
To protect her from the storm outside  which sometimes battered this door ..
There's another door, which she's been knocking on for long,
Sometimes granting her wish for a sneak-peek,
but most of the times denying her the entry..
Because one day like the bird she has to fly away,
Lamenting,this door will miss those knocks someday!
Visiting from door to door, she has crossed the gates of life,
Now she has started to guard her door,
lest anyone leaves dark impression on them!
She fears these impressions because with other storms and many rains it may get washed away,
But the light might not enter through them anymore and the dark would seep inside deep....
Deeper into the soul which cherishes the light,
and alas! Another door would be closed!!!


For You - A short fiction

"All I did it, was for you... for us ....and" she raises a hand to motion him to stop. Tears were all that she was surrounded by at that moment. He sighed with a long pause and continued to speak, "alas! What has this all boiled down to... I stay out , I stay away to work hard so that all I earn decorates our own little world with dreams and things which I didn't get during my time or you didn't get in your's but our child does.. But if being away is tearing all the happiness apart , what's the use of all this?

She sniffed, cleared her throat to speak in a firm tone trying to address the despair in front of them- I haven't ever asked anything from you all these years, but you very well knew that Sunday is the only day we always try to bond atleast over the dinner table. Today also we both were waiting for you to come over at the breakfast since you'd left early. You could have atleast informed us that you would be late. The years that have passed between us, I know but the child has always waited "For you" and don't know when will the wait to forge an everlasting bond will get over for you know like everything else , trust needs time!

All he could do , was sigh into the teary empty eyes of his child.......

The child had already outgrown him by height, but he never could see or experience it. Most of the times , he could only see a body cuddled up under the wrap with a peaceful and serene expression. Sometimes , he was lucky enough to enjoy the momentary bliss of fatherhood where they both would play on Sundays, but now his memory deceived him when couldn't fetch when was the last time he experienced this bliss! The needs had always been unfair on his responsible  shoulders and as the age started to take toll, these very needs- for existence, for rare pleasures were becoming ruthless day by day....

Cleaning the plates, and wiping her tears away she longingly tried to clear away the sadness that lay around her family at that moment... The same family, for which she bore more sacrifices than probably any other mortal could have in her place! Before the bundle of hope that entered in her womb, she did it for her husband, for the microcosm in which she tried to exist but after her little baby came to see the first rays of the Sun the link changed!  Gaining back her composure, she reminded herself of the perfect facade she created to save her cocoon from the smirks of the evil, selfish and competent world - "Daddy has been late today so that he could work more hard and fulfill that Christmas wish for you since there's hardly any time left to Christmas isn't it?" The reassuring smile from the mother changes into the smile of acceptance of the child , all for the innocent trust between them!

And the father echoes behind... "Yes, its for you!" 

Saturday, April 11, 2015

Sparkle- Search for the extraordinary in the ordinary...

We are all entwined in our mundane lives-the routine work, to strive for our dreams and goals. All of this, has squashed our ability to search and identify the moments of bliss, ingenuity, excitement from the order and chaos of life! This sort of existence is no less than robots,but we're humans and if you believe in the existence of a supreme power it has endowed us with a special power.The power to find our own moments where we exclaim in surprise of finding something extraordinary among the ordinary- the gleam of gold in the scraps!

I fairly experience it more often, maybe because its my escape from the  fall in the warp of mundane life and the monotony associated with it. The perspective and viewpoints may differ with times (and sometimes moods too), yet it doesn't fail to surprise whenever it happens which I assume is the best part of the whole thing!

Sample this, a sleep deprived me stuck up in the worst jam of school dispersal and my phone trying to survive with 1% battery.. As I fight against my body not to fall asleep there and then with all the fatigue and frustration, I start to look around and try to observe things. A scene catches my fancy , a mother and her child trying to open the roadside eatery are setting a makeshift stone and brick chair. The mother and child lift a huge stone to settle on two brick rows , but the stone is tilted a bit more to the mother's side leaving it a bit unbalanced. Through that imagery , I draw a simple inference- Balance is essential in any sphere of life! Whether you take the work and family life balance, the balance between hope and despair or any such instance according to your own interpretation, its value is immense!

Walking through the foliage of dry leaves, I discover a pop of colour among them- the hues of Bougenvillea... making me realise that this intricacy of exploring and discovering such moments in the dull life gives the momentary excitement which sometimes may leave a deep impression on us!

So here's hoping , that someday something might intrigue you as well because after all we're humans..... at the end of the day searching for light among the darkness!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

my status on facebook...dated 24/5/2010


 its a new one,or rather i should say a more updated one...just when I was actually trying to remember my last night's dream, the dream didn't strike..but this one did...so it became an instant update to facebook,my favourite social networking site........can extend it anytime  once my poetic essence gathers sometime ...




kuch sapne...kabhi raaton ko meethi neend dete hain , toh kuch to raaton ki neend loot lete hain...

kuch sapne ....kabhi yaadon mein bas jaate hain, toh kuch lakh koshisho ke baawajood yaad hi nahi aate...